And this is what I look like if you forgot…
Because honestly it feels like it’s been awhile guys….my bad.
In the past week (or more I don’t know when I last blogged 😦 ), I have had another CT scan and now I have an appointment with the surgeon tuesday and an appointment with the concussion clinic thursday as well as a general neuro something on monday. Seriously sick of dr’s offices.
I have been biking and ellipiticalling <– new word? I haven’t been running. 😦 My head has been hurting, and I am seriously worried that me running is making it worst. So until I find out Tuesday what is going on in my noggin- I’m keeping the running to a minimum.
Updates on other life events.
I have accepted the internship for the rest of the year, switched my class schedule to 3 days a week of classes and I will now be traveling home thursdays after class and returning for class on tuesday so I can work Monday and Friday and then spend the weekend either here or my friends schools. Seriously I have issues- I know this… whateverrr
Mama bear and I went to the gym (obviously) and ellipticalled and then I met up with her upstairs to walk the track after. I even made her do abs BAHAH she told me “I had a c-section I can’t do that” I then told her to suck it up and many women who have had babies do more hard core things than sit ups…she cracks me up.. love her.
Last night I went to PERDITION. Perdition is the dance club in my favorite classy bar downtown haha
Na-night meggy 😉 I (obviously) was driving last night and as we were driving home my friend meg (who got a lil too nutty last night) passsedd ze eff out in mah car. Wicked funny. Had to bust her balls.
I won’t pretend like I’m more mature than my age, or that I am any better than anyone else. But I will say I have had more experiences in my past 3 years than more 21 year olds have. I have learned things that place me among a category of few. I struggle with both weight gains and restricting myself. I battle day in and day out on not over exercising. On top of this I now battle with knowing when I should and shouldn’t work out due to my head injury. I went from enjoying life a little too much (way too much booze, promiscuousness, and drugs- aka my high school+freshmen year of college) to being way to hermit-esque to now finding that I can enjoy 1 drink and respect myself and body. I am finding that healthy, happy balance while trying to eliminate guilt.
I think I’m doing a relatively good job. Right after the accident, when I couldn’t work out for about 2 weeks I realized something. I didn’t gain a single freakin’ pound. I ate what I wanted and when I wanted, I would walk or something but nothing extreme…and I didn’t gain a pound. I really think that it helped showed me that I don’t need to kill myself every work out and every morsel of food I put in my mouth.
Moderation really is the key. Everything in moderation. I have an obsessive personality. I purposefully don’t watch TV shows that are popular when they are on tv because I like to watch a full season at once, I like obsessing and watching 3 episodes in a row… I can’t handle waiting week by week. (Aka right now with Mad Men…and Curb Your Enthusiasm) But for most things I am trying to be more relaxed about it. I desperately (and am trying) to be the girl that doesn’t eat everything on her plate because she feels like she has to. I am trying to stop when I realize I don’t want anymore.
Since this is my blog, which I obviously have made not so much a running/ weight loss blog and more a holy crap this is my life, blog- I will talk about my latest worry.
I’m worried my CT is going to come back bad. I’m also worried it will come back normal. WHAT? Yeah… I am. If it comes back bad- that means surgery or something. If it comes back normal- that means things are fine, but then that doesn’t answer why it is day 43 of a head ache and pains in the location of the break. So Tuesday…YOU’D BE NICE IF YOU CAME FASTER.
^^Ps. Why does this seem to be my life right now?? SMH (shaking my head) my love life is in shambles.
PPS. I’m going to get back to being a better blogger. Food and work out noms aside- I miss this.