**I just said to brit “what should the title of my post be” she said “poop mouth” so there it is. **
Attention bloggies- this is not a rant what-so-ever, this is a realization!
I have come to a point in my “journey” that I feel as though I am “starting over” again. Yeah- I’m not starting from a whole new beginning, I’m not doing this from 200lbs and never ran longer than a mile for fun… I’m starting from a “I’ve had a taste of where I want to be” and I WANT IT BACK. As we know (or if you are new, you may not), I have gone through a lot in the past 6 or so months. I went from obsessing a wee bit too much and putting my body through starvation mode. I lost a lot of MUSCLE (as well as fat…). I didn’t treat my body right and through this I..
- gained weight back
- got injured
- got sick a lot
Where has this left me?
- 20 pounds heavier
- loss of endurance
- loss of confidence
- had to buy new jeans…a size larger
With all this being said- things are looking up. Big time.
Because of the flubs, I have had to make changes and deal with adversity.
Right now I the changes I have made have paid off. I didn’t “tell” <— I wasn’t keeping it from you guys I swear, I just haven’t had time to write a post and I kinda wanted to experiment before I came out with this.
I have gone back to the “old” weight watchers. I don’t necessarily know if it was the “new” weight watchers that made me gain, but it had screwed me up mentally. I KNOW the old system works with me and I am confident with it. So I went back to it, and I’ve been feeling better. I don’t feel like I need to eat a certain amount and I just overall have liked the switch back.
As for Strength In Motion– before today I was kinda bummed, I didn’t “see” any change, and the scale has not budged, actually it went up a lb or 2. But today I checked my leg measurements that I took May 19th…and I was very pleased.
Thigh (May 19th) – 25 inches
Hips (May 19th)- 36.5
Thigh (June 8th) – 23.3 inches
Hips (June 8th) – 35 inches.
Holy Crap- Seriously if this doesn’t show that the scale means nothing I don’t know what does.
As for coming back with my running- if you are one of those who has messaged me saying ” how did you build up” or “how did you get faster” or any of those- I am starting back up so you can see how I did it because I’m doin the same as I did before!
I don’t run for “miles” necessarily- I set a time of how long I want to run, and then I do that. And if I’m close to a next distance- I always finish it out.
Ex- Today I wanted to run for 40 minutes, so I did and ran 5 miles.
Okay so after this massive post- I looked like a soccer played today at the gym- GPOYT
Ignore my stupid face and the fact it looks like i dont have a neck/ am still so pale I am not sure if ive seen the sun yet…. and check out that nasty raspberry on my leg still lookin delish…its pusing as we speak 🙂 VOM
Q- What do you think the hardest part about weight loss is? Or any journey for that matter?