A decision has been made that I didn’t expect- but when your guts telling you something, you need to listen to it.
I woke up this morning at 5:50am, rolled over and went to crawl out of bed to use the bathroom. My first steps off my bed and I knew what needed to be done. My 5 second walk to the bathroom told me everything I needed to know. My calfs were swollen and tight, my knees cracked and my hip ached. And that’s when I decided.I’m not running the Buffalo Marathon this May. I hurt up in the morning with pains, not good soreness, but literal pains. I am exhausted most nights by 9. Runs that used to feel great, now take a lot more to get through. I have overtrained. I have become run down and it is effecting every aspect of my life.
I am not confident in myself, my running or my body.
Since the marathon finished I have gone from injury to injury and in between those little blips- I’ve been sick 4 times in the past 2 months, this is huge considering before this I had only had maybe one cold in the past 6 months.
If we reflect back on my blog for the past couple months we can easily see the clues leading to this. Runs are taking everything out of me, my weight has gone haywire, I’ve been more unhappy with things that I have in a while.
And I really think that being so run down (no pun intended) has effecting my weight. I’m focusing on training and doing the running rather than bettering myself and providing myself with what I need. I will chose an hour run over doing other work outs “because I need to log miles”.
I’ve lost my arm muscles and abs. My strength is completely gone, I have endurance YES, but I need to be well rounded.
Mentally I am in no place to run a marathon right now.
I need to get myself incontrol again. I have finals to focus on rather than worrying about squeezing in a 20miler between soccer practice and writing papers.
I am a 21 year old who needs a break before she goes nuts.
So that’s it guys- no more marathon training. Not until after soccer season. I want to get back to goal weight, learn to maintain the right way and then in the fall I will start training for the Disney Marathon. I am going to say it again, I’m only 21- I have a whole hell of a lot of time to qualify for Boston and then run it, what’s the rush?
Am I disappointed in myself? Yes a little. I feel like if I had done things differently after the marathon I wouldn’t have put myself in this situation of being so run down. But we live and we learn.
Don’t you worry though, this blog was originally created for my weight loss, it formed into a very running focused blog. I’m still going to run a lot but I’m taking the pressure off it. I’m going to start a lifting program, I am going back to focusing on my eating not fueling for running.
I hope you all continue to follow me on my newest struggles and journeys! Lots of new things coming this way with new challenges!
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